You Are More

I have a confidence issue. Plain and simple. It's definitly gotten better in the last few years, but its no where near where it should be. Actually, I take that back, I've gotten better with certain areas of my life in the confidence area, but I still struggle with it a lot. I really struggle with this the most with my singing. In fact, I have a really hard time taking compliments, and I have an even harder time saying thank you. Not because I am trying to be disrespectful, but because I don't think I'm deserving of the compliments. God is definitly dealing with me on this. I know in my heart that I have a gift. I know in my heart that God has put me in this season of my life because of this gift, and that I better use it :)
We had a guest musician come in this weekend to take part on our service on Sunday morning. I'm not gonna lie, I was a little scared before we met. I have no problem singing with Taylor every Sunday....we sing really well together and just work well together. Anyway, it was a completely different ballgame singing with Amanda, because she is from Nashville and has had a lot of training in music, and this chick can sing. I was nervous, but I shouldn't have been. It was so much fun singing with her, and being able to do new harmonies, etc.
I say all that to say this, Amanda made a point to catch me after the service. Jesus used her to speak in to my spirit more than I knew I needed it. She said, you know Britt, your timid. You have a gift, and your timid. You hold back, you need to keep focusing on your gift, and you need to use it. God gave you a gift.
I've struggled with hearing that before, but God really checked me at this point. I've always in my heart of hearts wanted to do whatever I could with my gift. I don't know what this is going to look like, but I know that God used her to speak to me at that moment. So here we are, at a crossroads, again. Who knows whats going to happen, but hopefully good things :) I know in my heart that God is ready for me to get over this self confidence issue. I also know that God gives us the desires of our hearts, so I'm going to rest in that peace.

Britt

BTW, for those of you missing Lindsay, she'll be back around soon :) Hang in there!